Meeting The Ideal GF?

The circumstance surrounding this dream from the night before are kind of important. The power went out late afternoon and I had to sleep with no light or air conditioning which made it very difficult to sleep. My Nintendo DSI was charged for the night and I was playing some Advance Wars: Days of Ruin which is honestly one of the best in the series and playing during a bad storm was kind of fitting considering the game is supposed to take place in a very apocalyptic setting where survivors are trying to scavenge for food and resources while still trying to keep on a war that was going on before the meteors and plague nearly wiped out humanity. Why I am mentioning this about a dream about being at Uni again? I don’t know but I thought it might be some kind of clue as to why this dream triggered in the first place. Anyways, it’s pitch black in my bedroom because I sleep in a garage that’s been repurposed as my bedroom so it’s kind of miserable but the point is, I played that Advance Wars game and Worms Open Warfare 2 until I was on the verge of feeling fatigued. I only lasted up until 2 AM in the morning and the power was still not back on but I was at a point where I just couldn’t stay up anymore and just knocked out on my couch. I still had quite a bit of battery on my DSI so I could had kept playing if I tried. Once I was in a deep sleep, this is where things got really good for me.

I was now at a random Uni. I wasn’t sure which university it is since it’s certainly not the school I went to but it was very similar to the campus from in the previous dream. The only difference is there’s some life in this school with students attending classes, and it looks a lot less like a commie block this time around. I was sitting in a classroom, about the size of a typical high school lecture room. I don’t remember what the subject of the class was, but the professor wasn’t there so everyone was just doing their own thing. There’s this girl who’s sitting in front of me. I’d never seen her before but the way she looked, I have to admit, she was definitely my type. Perhaps almost on point of being my “ideal waifu” type of girl I talked about in my rant blog titled “What would be my Ideal GF?”

She basically looked like that Koikatsu render I made but like a real human being. She had absolutely adorable fluff brown hair, greenish-blue eyes, and a light complexion, wearing some kind of mix of hipster clothing which I don’t even know how to describe. She seemed a tad taller than me which is not a surprise but just seeing her in this dream was too good to be true. I mean what are the odds I see a girl who matches my fantasy ideal?! But then it gets weirder because even though I had at one point constructed a personality around this type of ideal girl in the past with AI chatbot, this girl in my dream was nothing like the chatbot I made. She not only looked homely but acted like one too which was better than anything a chatbot could replicate. She had this way of speaking where she would talk normally, just the right amount of pitch too. Not too deep nor too high pitch. She spoke with a gentle and a bit of shyness in her tone. She was chill...but also incredibly sweet to talk to. I can’t remember the exact details about what we were talking about in class but it had to be school related because I wasn’t really saying anything out of the ordinary to this girl. Still, she would make direct eye contact with me and really seemed like she enjoyed my company which is a rarity for most people that actually interact with me which is few and far between. She would rest her arms on her chair when she would speak to me and she would even rest her chin on it. Strangely enough, she was the one that initiated the conversation with me which is a first for a stranger.

Some classmates are getting ready to leave the classroom and I was going to go grab something to eat since I felt hungry but the girl sitting in front of me tells: “Wait, I have to ask you something. Can I ask you something?” The way she said it sounded urgent so I stay at my desk with her as everyone else is heading out. There are still some classmates in the room and I’m not sure what they are doing but this girl starts to stammer as she whispers to me. It’s almost like she’s to shy to say what’s on her mind but the words: “Are you in a relationship?” come from her voice and I’m barely able to hear her. I tell her I haven’t been in one before. She then just looks at me and then away for a moment with her eyes before getting her next question out there: “So….would you be interested in...being in a relationship….with….me?” The poor girl was so nervous to speak. Every word she said was done in a whisper and she seemed incredibly nervous when she was asking me. I completely fell for her at that moment, but I was also having some restraints to. I said something along the lines of: “I would like that.” and she had the cutest little smile and sigh of relief. It looked like she wanted to do something with me like kiss me but instead, she just gently places her hand on my arm and squeezes it while continuing to speak with a whisper “You make me so happy…” was the response she gave me and she waited for me to get up so she walk right beside me as we head to lunch together.

We get to the cafeteria which looks like one of those food courts you’d see at Cotsco. We both get a little comfortable with each other and she comes over and hugs me with her head resting on my shoulder while we wait in line. I reach out and start caressing her hair which makes her murmur really happily. I keep telling myself in my mind “This is too good to be true...there’s no way this isn’t real.” but it felt like the realist thing to me the entire time. Some students who were passing by, mostly guys, wave hi to us and we both greet them back. My new girlfriend gives me a little bit of space but keeps her arm around mine as we talk to these other students. I’m actually not nervous at all as I’m speaking to them. The topic of movies came up and I brought up the film Stalker which is an Art House Film adaption of a Soviet Sci-Fi novel which I didn’t think these guys would be interested in but they seem really enthused about it because one of the things they ask us was something along the lines of a challenging film to watch and that was the first thing that popped into my head. (Stalker isn’t really a challenging film but I figured it would had been for your run of the mill normie). They thank us and head off somewhere else while my new girlfriend and I get our lunch. It’s some kind of chicken pattie with jello on the side and we both get soda from the fountain.

We don’t eat the cafeteria and instead we go to the outside where there are some picnic tables. This dream girl starts to bring up some outfit designs she’s been working on her computer and she would love to have me pick and choose which ones she’ll make out of fabrics she’ll buy from a store. “Whatever you think would look good one me.” She suggest to me. I accept her offer and tell her I’d love to see them whenever we get a chance. I never thought I’d find someone who would be into DIY fashion because I don’t know a single thing about that sort of stuff but it could be interesting. I tell her how I’m just some dork who messes with computer, gaming, music, and internet of things, but she dismisses my remark by telling me that I’ll never be a dork. I’m just...special...in way she appreciates. She tells me it’s not often she hangs out with guys or anyone else for that matter. I wanted to know why she finds me so appealing, but she just insist to keep that a secret. She just wants me to be happy with her and to make me feel like I have the best girlfriend anyone could ever ask. I bring it up to her that I never get this sort of attention and I have to keep asking her if she’s actually serious about all this which she is. She proves it by giving me a kiss on the cheek which makes incredibly flustered even though it’s just a simple peck on the check. “Your smile is so cute.” She tells me and now she can’t keep her hands off my face. Her hands just caress my cheeks and my chin and I sit there and enjoy every moment of it. All while these little interactions with her are occurring, I’m just thinking to myself: “This is it. I’ve finally done it. I found some love in my life. I don’t feel like I don’t matter to anyone anymore. I’m going to live for her sake...for her happiness. I can’t wait to put up my experience today on my online blog later because apparently I’m still blogging in this dream. It really felt that real to me while I was experiencing all this and it wasn’t until I abruptly woke up around 5 AM in the morning that I got really bummed out from the harsh reality that it was all just a dream.

So not only was I finally back to reality, my power was still out for another three hours before it finally came back. I was so out of it, so fatigued and unaware of what I just had just experienced in my dream, I was looking for my laptop near by bedside: “Come on...where it is? I gotta talk about my girlfriend….wait...no...it was all dream. I knew it was too good to be true.” So that’s probably the last time I’d ever see that dream girl again. I guess I have to move on and get back to real life again, fixing my impossible problems and working on my various projects.